what kind of this feeling???

Well, I know him. He's my friend, bisa dibilang one of my best friend. kemana-mana bareng... almost closer, although new in this semester. Awal masuk, which is pertengahan maret, biasa aja, setau gue dia sedang mengobati rasa sakitnya yang kemaren sempet luka (sedikit sok tau sih gue).

Day by day, week by week, we more and more closer (dan gue sedikit geer), I feel something different feeling, I don't know what kind of this feeling??? Love? or just.... uh, I don't know what kind of this!!!

Sekitar in the middle of may lah, which is, He help my group for the first time, we going together to west. Then, I feel more to him. Gue masih gak ngerti ini perasaan apa. Dari situ... I always and never stop thingkin 'bout him, nge-tweet tentang diaaaa terus, pokoknya all of my tweet isinya cuma dia.

Sampai kepada, temen-temen cewek gue penasaran abis-abisan siapa cowok yang gue maksud. Mereka maksa abesss supaya gue cerita and they'll find out. And then, singkat cerita awal juni gue cerita semuanya (padahal asli! gue gak kepengen banget buat cerita). Gue gak mau teman-teman gue tau, ya... gue gak mau aja mereka tau. Takutnya, they try to deketin gue sama dia, and what? it's 100 % right, they really do that! But thanks anyway, friends. You all... my bestfriends ever.

And now, I still don't understand, sejauh apa dan seperti apa perasaan gue yang sebenernya ke dia. Asli, gue gak tau! But the truth said that : I can't erase him from my mind and from the deepest of my heart (dia sungguh beruntung). Walaupun gue udah coba abis-abisan untuk menghapus semua itu.

So, what kind of this feeling???